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soo i went to the doctor this morning and got some bad news... this is my health update. i literally got home from the doc, cried for 10 mins then came to record so this is super real and raw and im just sharing my feelings in this moment. these aren't all my truest feelings, but it is where i am at right now. the only way to go is up. i am becoming healthier every single day so i guess there is that. give me a gold star and like I'm 5.

tw: sarainn- 8006564673tw when we start talking about fight or flight and we hear one story from the one and only shyanne.. she tells us some stuff about her life experiences and perspectives on things. kind of random and light but we get deep the more were talking. love you bye

i am becoming a truer lover. i am learning and keeping myself open to growth. this sounds like every other episode i guess but it is different and feels different is the same way lol. idk just come sit and listen geez. love you

Last weeks episode sucked but i like this one a lot better! I am becoming the version of myself that is the truest most beautiful one i can imagine . I think this episode is very present and honest. Im exited so its a little chaotic but i love it lol.

TW:SARAINN- 1800-656-4673weird stories wrapping up the boy stuff... graphic but necessary. hanging out with a 40 year old man for the plot was a wild surprise maybe its just men i dont like...

it is getting closer to our camping festival, and we are so excited i talk a lot about that and then other random shit. love you

lifeline: 988i talk about what's been happening in my life lately. going to my first ren faire!! new ideas and thoughts! I also talk about driving through the town i grew up in and seeing things differently now. Realizing how much i have distanced myself, i didn't even remember some of my friends' houses. this town has had some tragic losses and i was able to hold space for that as i was driving through last night. it reminded me how precious my life is. it sent a wave of calmness over me in a unexpected way. i love you. take a deep breath.

TW: SA. RAINN- 18006564673you would like to think that cops, whose job is to protect you, wouldn't abuse that power...but nope. shitty friends, liars, power hungry, selfish, cheater boys. Its SA awareness month and i think it is so important that i share and take my voice back in whatever way i can. i think this podcast is my biggest voice and i want to share so maybe at least one person feels seen or heard in some way. i hate that this happens so often. I want to make this world was safer for people who identify as women. I love you.

fuck it. fuck society standards... the box, it's like a little small box some random bitch made for a tiny non-existent group of people and everyone else hates themselves for not fitting into this box, but it literally was not made for us.... I hate these standards and the way it affects all of us even the people who mostly fit inside of it. idk anyone who fits perfectly and its SO harmful to everyone in some way and i hate it. but i still try to fit into it in some ways and get upset when i don't. so, i am putting this out to try to grow my brain and just point out to everyone else that i dont and wont ever fit into it no matter how i hard i try and the same probably goes for everyone. its fake and just creates divide and power... my least favorite things.

TW: Sa; coercion RAINN- 18006564673 My first love. My first healthy relationship, with a boy that honestly saved me in a lot of ways and taught me a lot.... that I deserve respect from a man... it didn't stick... recently have been getting disrespected af by a man from a 7-year situationship, if you will. lots of good tea here. I am still learning so much. Even though I am a completely different person, trying to redefine your relationships is really hard when they have been one way for such a long time. We are creatures of habit and sometimes you have to learn the hard way that enough is enough... and bitch at this point I HAVE HAD ENOUGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!